Leaves fall, birds fly south, and people move on..inevitable facts of life!

Everyone goes through similar stages of life, but everyone has their own path and different pace at which they travel. Those that move onto the next step often forget that there were a lot of people who gave them the support they needed to make that leap to the next rung. They were there to give you all the help and advise that was needed.

You moved onto a new school, a new job or maybe a marriage, and forgot about all those that you left behind. What about them, whose gonna help them now, who's gonna give them the support and comfort they need when its their turn at that point? Maybe they need you the same way u needed them then, but instead of doing the same in return, you just forgot about them?

It would be simple to say that they arent really ur friends, or really dont care about you as much as thought they did. But its not something that is as easy to determine. Afterall moving onto the next stage of your life is just such a natural move. Can you blame them for wanting to move on, because after all u do want to do that same?

Easy or hard, right or wrong, it hurts when someone you took care of always forget that u might need taking care of sometime too!

Ive spent the last two days lying with a heat pack on my back, watching tv. what a  relief that i didnt have to open my books and study, the fact that i desperately look for excuses makes me wonder why im doing this in the first place. sometimes u do things, and somewhere along the line u actually forget why u even started it. but does that mean u stop and figure out what ur doing, or u go ahead with it cause afterall there must be a valid reason behind it afterall? If i stop and later realise it was important after all, ive missed a big opportunity..but i go ahead with and later realise i dont even care anymore, what do i do then?

i think the question is not whether i should give the exam or not, its what do i want with my life and whether this fits into it somehow? 

btw what do i really want with my life?

OF the broad spectrum of thoughts and emotions that we experience, why do we withhold so many of them just to follow the rules of society? We offer false sentiments just to make someone feel better eventhough we know things might not work out well, we make polite conversations with people that we really cant stand, and we surpress so many of our opinions so that we dont offend someone else! All of this just to satisfy the necessities of a social order that seems far more unnatural than all the thoughts and emotions that we feel.

And the point of it all...apparently its to create social order! but im not sure that it necessarily always leads to a greater good. Am i helping someone by giving them false hope, wouldnt they be better able to face reality if they had someone who was helping them to see it for what it really is? Why not just tell someone how u really feel about them so you dont have to pretend and make yourself face unpleasant emotions in order to just hide one that is unpleasant to them? 

I suppose our ability to control ourselves is what inherently makes us human, we are not just a function of our genes, our hormones, our basic fundamental elements but more than that! But we fight our natures for the greater good, and sometimes we end up fighting so much that we end up becoming something that dont even want to become. I dont know about you, but i sometimes get tired of it all; i want to be able to tell someone that im angry it took them 20 hrs to reply to an sms, i want to be able to tell someone i love them without feeling like its the wrong thing, and i want to tell that colleague of mine what a mother fucker i really think he is. But i know that if i do all those things, my friend might think im being petty over a small thing, i may end up sacrificing everyone else i love for just one person, or i may never be able to get my co-worker to give me the docs i asked for! so we just end up following the rules, society keeps moving, but we may just be ending up a population of emotionless zombies!

u would think after 18 yrs they would remember to call u and tell u the good/bad news!! 

its weird how sometimes u can have soo much and still be so unhappy, what would it take to make this emptiness go away! i would do anything!