I felt good today - not just because it was my birthday and i had a nice day with my friends and family - because i really felt good inside. Its a difficult feeling to describe, it seems so much deeper than just the everyday emotions that we go through, almost like the underlying state that everything else is based on.
There are days when no matter how much fun you have, deep inside you still feel like shit, and no matter what u do, will it go away. but not today, today felt different. no the day was not perfect; some people forgot my bday, some called later than others and others brightened moments with their thoughtfulness. With all the goods and bads, i was content at the end of the day. why today, i dont know but this has been a long time coming... after so long do i finally feel that i am living again.
For over a year i was living like a zombie, wandering through one day to the next..like a dark shadow with nothing but darkness inside of me. but i feel like im finally here, im finally living in today, finally being able to feel the sun and taste the food. seems melodramatic and even silly, but its true. life is not perfect, and it wont ever be...but i have started to come to terms with what it is. i dont know what tomorrow is but i want to find out, for the good and the bad.
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Hi,
Happy Birth Day:)
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